not perfect.

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i create thousands of mistakes. i made humans hurt. i made humans upset. thats only becusz im not perfect. i understand when people say "learn from your mistakes" but im different. i need a thousands of lessons learnt then i finally learn my lesson. and today, i finally learnt my lesson. i may be the girl who got everything i want . but today i fail . i fail to get the person i love and want in my life so bad. i nvr felt so desperate for someone like this. its frustrated but somehow i know its my mistake. my own wrong doing without thinking. no point begging. no point crying. everytg is done. over and done with. theres no road of turning back. because of the thousands of hurt ive cause him, now ill respect his decisions. yes it kills me having to know his with someone else. but what could i do. im not someone special in his life anymore. he dont love me like how he used to. he dont care about me like how he used to. blame me. im the cause everything falls. for now, ill give his time on his own. i shall concentrate on my school and learn to be independant and strong even tho deep down i kno i cant. i got no friends. only my busy mother and busy sister. this is the time i will learn to respect and get to kno myself. its okay if you dont love me, its okay if you wanna leave me. i cant say much after all the things ive put you through. but if i were given a chance. i would sacrifies and risk anything even my life to save this. to turn back time. to be with you. i regret everything.

for now, i shall just leave this blog to rust.

made new life.

turn to a lesbian.

and just keep things to myself.

gooood day readers

(if theres any)