finally the day that i long not wanting it to come, finally came.
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okay. breaking fast fo the last time this year was sucha a sungguh-sayu feeling. breaking of fast when i heard the azan, my heart sank and wonders that wouldnt it be great if dad were here like other years ago. wouldnt it be fun to have dad pilling the chicken for the three of us. wouldnt it be fun if dad is there to make things even more happening. and when the takbir was on air, fyzah start tearing. and broke down. and soon after, mom. and i couldnt control myself and tear went falling down my cheek. suddenly the three of us went silent and the moment was so (insert feeling). as the takbir kept playing on the radio, the situation kept worsen. but yes, soon after. we slowly cooled down. and had afew of flashback about the few rayer that had passed with dad around. i miss you. indeed. we miss you daddy. if you were still here, i bet this year we all look good in blue. i love you daddy ^^
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and soon after breakfasting, helena, haney and family came over. and from there atmosphere in the house we much more contented. and then came along kakak nor. and maklong start calling and mom start laughing on the phone. tomorrow hafta wake up damn early to go pusara aman . and nw i havent had my sleep. and again, i cant imagine tommorow when we are getting ready to head of to aunty place beside daddy and the time when we had to seek fo forgiveness. i bet theres tsunami flooding my house. so keeeep clear.
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lastly, to all muslim people. selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin. saya menyusun sepuluh jari untok memohon maaf kepada kamu semua yang saya telah ter-kasar bahasa, ter-maki, ter-tendang-tersinggungkan perasaaan and all the TERs la. harap maaf kan saya okay? halalkan makan dan minum saya okay> xoxo.
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11:59 AM // lipsof this sugar on